i’m so happy that you get to hang out with hwan tomorrow and go to school and pick the only day i’m going to see you all week to do everything. i’m so glad that you tell me last minute when we already made plans to hang out tomorrow. you know what, fuck it. i’m so glad that you care about the plans that you made with me that i’m whatever about it. i should just ignore my feelings and not be upset about this because i know it’ll start a huge fight.
i really want to cry right now, because if i act like nothings wrong, you won’t even notice that what you did really hurt my feelings.
thank you for making so much time for your girlfriend whom you only saw for 2 hrs all of last week, and for making plans with hwan and everyone else and only spend like 2 more hrs with me. so thats 4 hrs in 2 weeks that we’ll be spending time together.
this just makes me feel like i don’t even matter to you, when you’d rather spend all your money taking care of your cat or going out to places without me. is it wrong of me to feel this shitty about our relationship right now? see, this is the kind of thing that pretty much ruined our relationship the first time. i feel shitty, and now i won’t have a happy day tomorrow, even though i should be. fuck everything.